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OH. MY. GOD. Obviously, y'all already know quite clearly that I am in utter love with Misha Collins. Castiel is amazing, wonderful, perfect, awesome, beautiful, etc.

I think I love Jimmy even more.

At least, I'm sitting here sobbing over him - as brilliant as Cas is, we *don't* have that emotional connection with him that we get straight away with Jimmy. To make a small tangent - I think that speaks incredibly highly of Misha's acting skill. Not just as a hopeless fangirl, really. I would think that most people would agree that his ability to go from shuttered, mysterious, trying-to-be-heartless Castiel to confused, disillusioned, crisis-of-faith Jimmy is AMAZING. Within moments he had me hooked - his faith pre-vesselage, his obvious love for his family, the conflict of his religious convictions vs his family (and this! omg. Because it's not like he was being an idiotic religious fanatic or anything - he really truly was being called by an angel), his guilt over leaving (that scene with his daughter! "I am not your father" - that's about when I started crying), and then he's so mad at Cas for breaking his promise about Jimmy's family not being endangered but at the same time all Jimmy can do is beg for help because he still trusts Cas....Jimmy is a fabulous, complex character, well equal to the complexity of the angel for whom he is a vessel, and I'm really pleased to be getting this glimpse of him. Misha, seriously, so fine. Such great acting! Such beautiful eyes! Such a gorgeous voice!

To actually talk about something other than Cas for once - Sammy! Now we see for certain that he is in fact addicted to the demon blood. He's scaring himself! And now they've all seen his demon-drinking tendencies! And where on earth is Ruby? I'm still on team Ruby, really, I think she's fab. I really really hope that they don't like, shove her off of the show by making it all turn out to be some elaborate plot to ruin Sam. That would be horrid.

Anna! Love! "I like the element of surprise." hehehee. And her worry for Cas! Oh guys, there is really clearly something there beyond just her care for her fellow soldier/subordinate. She fears for him experiencing the pain of being taken back up to heaven! And OH, just the fact that it hurts so much for an angel to be sent back home...there's something big there, I think, something connecting to Anna's whole thing about human life being preferable.

CLAIRE. Um, okay, so here's my theory - she is Jimmy's daughter. It's in Jimmy's blood to be a vessel. Therefore, it's in Claire's blood to be a vessel. If she's not already (because why else are the demons so after her/why doesn't she react more strongly to her mom turning demon and smacking her?), then I strongly suspect she will be becoming an angel. HAHAHAHA. Okay, so I was writing this up while still waiting for the rest of the episode to buffer. BAMF CLAIRE PROVING ME RIGHT. HECK YES.

and then wait wait wait what!?!??!?! (sorry, I should not live live-journal) OMG. Okay. omg. omg. Because it IS Cas in Claire, and Jimmy doesn't even think the saving his own life part when he tells Cas to take him, he's thinking about how he doesn't want his little girl to have to go through what he has, and it's beautiful and perfect and fatherly and then....Castiel gets up and walks away from Claire. Cas, I adore you, but that was BAD. I know you learned your lesson or whatever shit happened up in heaven (some superiors got to you, eh? don't listen to them, baby, listen to the truth! listen to Anna! listen for God!), but you're NOT heartless, you're NOT, and you can't just go all cold and emotionless and walk away from Jimmy's family, you CAN'T.

And now I'm crying, but I have to go finish my annotated bibliography. I have to stop doing this. I'm subsisting right now purely on Supernatural, an inability to sleep unless I've done my homework, a general inability to sleep, water, Advil, Dr. Pepper, and rice. Not healthy, I am aware. Oh well.